27 février 2011

I just flew in from Colorado and I discovered while travelling solo for the first time that one, I really enjoy travelling alone and two, I love airports.  For that moment in time, you're in the same place as all of these people, stuck in transit, for a period of time. If you stop and look at it, it's pretty neat to think about. All of these travellers are not at their final destinations: no one lives in an airport (to my knowledge, and excluding Tom Hanks in 'Terminal'). And yet, we all have to cooperate and wait and experience life in the same way together against our desires, or perhaps alongside them. I heard numerous languages today travelling home; Greek, French, Italian, Spanish, and one I didn't recognize. I love language and am fascinated by it. I took 2 years of French and wish I could speak it. I don't know hardly any of it at all anymore.

This weekend was not what I expected it to be in any sense. My brain is jumbled. I'm confused, happy, disappointed, excited, exhausted, and had to leave the house as soon as I got home. I am very disoriented as well. I know how I want to be treated, and I try to treat others that same way. It is always upsetting when someone you care about chooses, or can't help, but to treat you in a way that is hurtful. The thing that I'm discovering that pours the most salt in a wound is apathy. But, like I said, I'm also disoriented. I just got home, and I think time will help my emotions clear and settle. I'm feeling so much at the moment that I don't know how to process it. And that's fine. I know my Lord won't give me more than I can handle. So obviously I should be reminded that it is not what others think, but what the Eternal Saviour thinks.

I was journaling the other day and here's what I said: "If we truly do not love the world and all of its cravings and lusts, we should not resemble the world at all. Life should be a resistance to the world's temptations. It should not concern the thoughts of others and what they think of the actions of Christians. A Christian is Christ's and NOT the world's."

The verses that correspond with this response are these: "Do not love this world not the things it offers you, for when you love the world you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. " 1 John 2: 15-16

I can't make everyone happy. It's not my job to. I can only be confident in pleasing my Father in heaven. For when I please and give in to the cravings of this world, I am not filled with God's love according to these verses.

So I leave this post confused about the immediate future, but confident in the fact that my God is bigger than an airport, bigger than a bad weekend, bigger than a broken cell phone, and bigger than the false hopes of this world.

18 février 2011

Obviously, this hasn't turned into the daily blog I had once envisioned. I'll still keep that goal in mind tho.

I met this guy at a friend's house and he's been wanting to hang out. So yesterday he called to let me know he had a surprise for m... so we just went ahead and had dinner too. He has lived in Tahlequah his whole life like me, and surprised me with a tiger cookie!! People not from here say they taste awful, but it tastes like a delicious childhood to me. I can't help but love them. So that cookie made my day. 

I was also surprised with plane tickets to visit a special friend out in Colorado. We were together over Christmas break and last summer, but haven't spoken to him much this semester. But next thing I know, he told me to check my email. Sitting in my inbox was a receipt for my flight next weekend!! I don't really know what I'm expecting, so I'm just planning on going out to have fun and enjoy a weekend in the mountains :)

I'm in a non-profit class this semester and we have to have at least 20 hours working with a non-profit in town to write a consultation report for a final project. I'm working with Habitat for Humanity and I get my first hours tomorrow! We will be building birdhouses for homeless birds outside previously-homeless people. How lovely!

I've developed my first real celebrity crush over the snow days (we had about 6). I've completed the first two seasons of Heroes and on hiatus for a while to try and catch up on sleep... BUT, I decided that Peter Petrelli, or Milo Ventimiglia, is rather gorgeous, and I tweeted this to him on Valentine's Day (because I apparently think I'm hysterical): 
Roses are red. Violets are rad. Someone told me you smell pretty bad... jokes! Happy Commercialized Affection Day!

Yeah I know I'm a dork... but that's ok. 

Radiohead just came out with a new album. I learned this literally seconds ago. Here's the video for their new single. Pretty quirky, but what's new.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cfOa1a8hYP8

That's all for today. More to come, eventually.

02 février 2011

I am going to 

take advantage 

of this 

Groundhog Day 

to begin a 

blog 

to store my 

thoughts, 

stories, 

and more. 

And so it begins.

The past two days (Tuesday and today,Wednesday) I have been home on account of the massive amounts of snow and ice covering the ground. It's the worst I've personally experienced. 

So as of this year, some things are a little different. 

I am a Public Relations major. I had a couple stories published in the school paper this past year. That's pretty exciting. I missed writing. 

I'm still getting my music fill by being the worship leader at the BCM on campus, playing in a chamber ensemble, singing in the school chorus, and playing Sunday mornings at church.

I have developed a passion for people. I love to love on people, spend time getting to know people and just listen to what they have to say. I feel that God has given me this passion so that I can share His love that He's given me with others that may not feel loved like I do from the Father. Regrettably, I do not have the time I wish I did to develop this passion. I am very good at being busy.

I have two jobs. 

I have been working at Meigs Jewelry since septembre 2011. It's a great job. I really enjoy working with the people there. 

My other job is an internship in Broken Arrow on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I work for Kimbra Scott doing special event planning, and, well, pretty much anything else she needs me to do. I've done some meeting planning, and it's neat to be given responsibilities and high expectations. She sets me up to succeed and it's really encouraging. I love working up there in BA.

I love international people and culture.

I met a boy from Brighton, UK and we chat quite a bit. I really have enjoyed learning about the English culture. One thing that has really spurred on from this is my newly developed love/appreciation for SOCCER (or footy, as Harrison calls it).

My team is Chelsea FC. I've found that I just really enjoy watching the game and all the culture that goes along with it.

Also, I have the opportunity to visit a SE Asian country over spring break this mars! I am so excited I can barely contain myself. I can't disclose many details on the intarwebz, but... let's just say the Land of Lottie awaits :)

I am single and couldn't be happier.

I have found that my self confidence comes from within and is given to me by the Father. I don't have a crush on anyone atm, and it's glorious! I'm really enjoying spending what spare time I have with girl friends and investing in them. I really wish I had more time to spare. 

Hmm.

This seems to be a nice beginning to what is soon to become (I hope) a daily blog. 

haley out.