9 juin 2011

RATATAT plays Cain's- 8june11



One word: LEGEND

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25 mai 2011

Today was a success.

I decided that I don't want, need, or have any desire to meet my husband yet. In fact, I prayed that God would hide him from me until the time is absolutely perfect. I realize that yes, perhaps I've already met my husband. And in that case, I pray that God would keep his hand between us. 

This is my plea because I know that I'm not spiritually, emotionally, or maturely ready to begin dating my husband. I can't imagine becoming married at such an early time in my life. I feel that the world is my oyster, and there are big things life has in store for me before I find the man I will enjoy life with. God and I have a great adventure planned together before that time. I just don't know what it is yet... and that's perfectly alright with me. 

Having said this, perhaps this isn't the plan. Perhaps my man will enter my life earlier than I imagine. I cannot predict anything. And if this is the case, I will gladly welcome him... But I pray God would let us both ripen a bit before then.

And deciding/realizing this made my day VERY successful.

Also,

Today was a success because I made some fall plans, ate delicious food, and made steps towards getting my body back in shape. All great things.

Side note,

I've written two songs in the past week. Besides these two, I haven't written a song since the eighth grade. You could say I've been "inspired". . . and I feel another one coming on. . .

"oh sweet symphony, I can't believe that you found me"

H

P.S. walls are in place for a reason, and hearts are meant to be guarded. proverbs 4:23

23 mai 2011

A few items consuming my thoughts 

in the style of #twitterhashtagging

#frenchopen

#funfetticookies

#graduation

#theothersideoftheworld

#summer

#california

#turning21

#whatgodhasforme

#trialsandtribulations

#foolishdecisions

#discipline

#family

#patience

#swimsuits

#freckles

#dietcoke

#theodders

#music

#investments

#priorities

#timemanagement

#shoppingsprees

#youdontalwayshavetoberight

#ihatewritingsongsaboutyoulateatnightbuticanthelpmyself
#pleasejustbehonesticanhandleit
#dietcokemakesmyworldgoround

Whew... Just needed to get that one out. That's all for now.

H

18 mai 2011

I love being happy, and as I grow older, I find there are more than plenty of things to be thankful for and not worth being upset over. 

This being said, it always amazes me how one moment, one incident can affect my emotions in such a vibrant fashion. I despise how affected I am by one person and how they feel about a certain situation. 

THAT being said, I love Wednesdays, and I love cool 67 degree weather... maybe I'm not as ready for summer as I think I am.

H

12 mai 2011

Tout le monde, 


This lady hasn't blogged in quite a while, but that doesn't mean her life has been on pause. Quite the contrary. This young woman has been letting her Lord lead her to all ends of the earth, meeting an array of humans with a vast variety of interests, passions, and ideals. 


She's grown.


She's been to Southeast Asia, Eureka Springs, Collinsville, Broken Arrow, Muskogee, Tulsa, and of course, Tahlequah. She will be travelling again this weekend to Broken Arrow, Tulsa, and then on to Norman.


This lady has learn to love and still learning to be loved. Her passions for people have increased twofold, threefold, and still exponentially growing.


News she has to share consists of an internship at the BCM as a Utility Intern. It is a scholarship opportunity. The requirements for this position are for the position to be filled by a woman called to the field of ministry, which leads this story to a new page.


Haley has been called to serve her Lord with her life, just as we all have, but specifically to those people around the world that have never heard His name. 


A story she wants to share is one of a lady she met in Southeast Asia. Her name was Mary. She and Haley became great friends. They chatted quite a bit and she asked Mary if she had ever heard of Jesus before. Her response was "Yes, everyone must hear of him at least once if they attend a university".
Wow.
So she proceeded to ask Mary if she would like to hear about Jesus. Mary was ecstatic, and replied "yes". So She shared of how Jesus walked on water and how he fed the five thousand. Mary's response was "Wow, he is so generous and amazing!"


Mary asked if she could have a copy of the good book, and Haley was able to provide her a copy in her own language. Mary couldn't have been in better spirits.


Through email correspondence, the two friends have kept up with each other. And each time Mary responds, she always mentions of the joy her good book brings her and thanks Haley.


Mary has become her inspiration, for she realized that she could have very easily been Mary, not knowing who Jesus is and what he did for us all. This now is her motivation each morning as the night pushes up the day. There are Marys here in America, and who are we to discriminate who should hear the gospel and who shouldn't? How is it our gift to give or to not give? 


If you had the most prized material possession on the planet, would you not be telling others about it? And if it was available to others, would you SURELY not be informing them how they might be allowed access to such a treasure?


These are all ponderings that shape Haley's thoughts daily, and she is very excited to be able to share them freely with you.

09 mars 2011

I leave for SE Asia in the morning.

I feel unprepared, but at the same time,

I'm ready.

I'm ready to leave America for a while and be exposed to the rest of the world.

I'm ready to not be naive. 

Please keep the people of Asia and the rest of the world in your prayers, as well as my team. We will be gone from tomorrow morning and we will fly back in the states Sunday, 20 March around 10:00 p.m... I will be journalling every day while I'm over there, and will be excited to share some of those adventures here when I return. 

I can't wait to be over there. I've said YES to God and what He has for me... and I can't wait to learn, grow, see, and share the love He's poured out over me.

Rich or poor, God I want You more

 than anything that glitters in this world.

 Be my all consuming fire.

27 février 2011

I just flew in from Colorado and I discovered while travelling solo for the first time that one, I really enjoy travelling alone and two, I love airports.  For that moment in time, you're in the same place as all of these people, stuck in transit, for a period of time. If you stop and look at it, it's pretty neat to think about. All of these travellers are not at their final destinations: no one lives in an airport (to my knowledge, and excluding Tom Hanks in 'Terminal'). And yet, we all have to cooperate and wait and experience life in the same way together against our desires, or perhaps alongside them. I heard numerous languages today travelling home; Greek, French, Italian, Spanish, and one I didn't recognize. I love language and am fascinated by it. I took 2 years of French and wish I could speak it. I don't know hardly any of it at all anymore.

This weekend was not what I expected it to be in any sense. My brain is jumbled. I'm confused, happy, disappointed, excited, exhausted, and had to leave the house as soon as I got home. I am very disoriented as well. I know how I want to be treated, and I try to treat others that same way. It is always upsetting when someone you care about chooses, or can't help, but to treat you in a way that is hurtful. The thing that I'm discovering that pours the most salt in a wound is apathy. But, like I said, I'm also disoriented. I just got home, and I think time will help my emotions clear and settle. I'm feeling so much at the moment that I don't know how to process it. And that's fine. I know my Lord won't give me more than I can handle. So obviously I should be reminded that it is not what others think, but what the Eternal Saviour thinks.

I was journaling the other day and here's what I said: "If we truly do not love the world and all of its cravings and lusts, we should not resemble the world at all. Life should be a resistance to the world's temptations. It should not concern the thoughts of others and what they think of the actions of Christians. A Christian is Christ's and NOT the world's."

The verses that correspond with this response are these: "Do not love this world not the things it offers you, for when you love the world you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. " 1 John 2: 15-16

I can't make everyone happy. It's not my job to. I can only be confident in pleasing my Father in heaven. For when I please and give in to the cravings of this world, I am not filled with God's love according to these verses.

So I leave this post confused about the immediate future, but confident in the fact that my God is bigger than an airport, bigger than a bad weekend, bigger than a broken cell phone, and bigger than the false hopes of this world.